Hollywood

The Flash? Ghostbusters 3? Xmen? Man Hollywood is making stupid movies! Green Lantern??? I am SICK of comic book movies. Except for Batman, Iron Man, the old Xmen, and I don't what other movies. Those are good ones.

But I don't think I am the only one sick of repeats and sequels. I want to see some horror/thrillers. I want to see some good 'ol pyschological, make-you-go-crazy-wondering, thillers! I don't want to see stupid horror movies. I am sick of Jason! Another Michael wouln't be too bad, as long as it went toDVD. But I want good movies.

Hollywood needs some fresh ideas, maybe some teenagers...Lol not really.

I personally can not wait for Transformers 2, HP, Eagle Eye, and especially Twilight!!! I found some new cult flicks coming to DVD, they are some teen comedy/horror flicks(Great)

Well now I'm not making any sense...So I quit.

G'd Night!!! <3 Marlo

Thinking about the future...

Music is great, but for some reason most songs make me think of how my future is going to turn out. I always think of the future, and even the past, but never just focusing on the PRESENT. I mean obviously sometimes you do need to think of your future, but not ALL the time.

My problem is that when I think of my future it consumes my mind, and it's all I can think about. Tonight I was listening to this song, and I thought that that was what song I wanted at my wedding! But I was always reading a book about marriage. Anyways, You can't let the future consume you. Ok what I mean is don't think about your wedding day, and useless stuff as a teenager.

Another thing is I dwell on the past! Sometimes I'll remember things that I said MONTHS ago to someone, and it's mostly the moments that I was stupid. I know in my mind that they don't remeber that moment, but I always still feel dumb.

This blog is basically making NO SENSE but I guess that's me!

I just want to say, focus on the present, don't dwell on the past. Just live your life. Hey maybe I should take my own advice =]

Twilight Series

I love this so far. Actually I've only read the first one, BUT I basically read it in one night. I loved it so much, I couldn't put it down! I tried to get the second one at the library, but out of 18 copies, people were already on hold so I wasn't gonna wait. So now I'm just going to buy the rest of the series! The movie looks INCREDIBLE, with the exception of Kristen Stewart, she just doesn't work.

Great actress, not her role though. I can't tell you who I could pick, because it would too hard to choose. The guy that they're using is perfect, his pale skin and beautifulness, is a perfect match for Edward Cullen!

They only thing that annoys the crap out of me is that STUPID Warner Bros. are putting Harry Potter off in place of Twilight. I LOVE HP, so I was really disappointed, but at the same time was it a smart move? I think it would good to put them both out for a standoff at the box office!

I can't complain. As long as they don't put Harry Potter off for long, because then I just put another rant blog!

Church Camp

Well I just got back from church camp.

I got to go to six flags, rappelling, the beautiful mountains in Colorado, and get some time with God.

Rappelling was one of th scariest moments of my life!!! I've never done anything like it before, I mean you're going off the side of a mountain! It was so exhilarating. The view was also amazing.


My time with God was well spent during that camp, although there were some moments when the road was rocky especially with my besty alyssa. She's preggo, and so that means mood swings to the max! I was seriously thinking of a few moments where I didn't want to be her friend, but I know she needs me so I just let her get over her little moods. I did realise the swings don't last very long.

I'm just ready for her baby to come, even if she's definetly NOT ready to have a baby....she's only 16. But maybe it'll test her and she can prove to everyone that she can be a good mom. She quit doing drugs and she won't hang out with me if i do anything. But the real test will be if she will dump her boyfriend if HE doesn't quit....which I'm sure he won't even if he has a baby on the way....

You can probaby jump to the conclusion that I hate him. He's a jerk. But whatever I've decided to stay the F**** out of their busisness even if it kills me. I hate when I try to be a good friend and get critizied for it.


Anyways I can't wait for next year. I made so many new friends and they will never be forgotten!

I think my relationship with God will be better, even if i'm not your normal Christian. I've decided to change my ways, I just have to figure it all out about what exactly I'm changing in my life.
I know that I'm ready.

Change?

OK I really like to dance and sing, but weirdly.

LIke dance all crazy and sing really annoyingly. I LOVE it. But now my friend is telling me that the reason I don't get guys is because I'm sooo very weird. I don't want to believe it but guys NEVER hit on me. I mean I'm most def not gonna change just because she tells me that. But it just makes me feel like crap.

OH well I just wanted to say that.

Peace

Smart Talking

There are some smart people in this world. I want to sound and be smarter. I want to say big words. And just sound overall smarter.

I don't know. but I am going to try.

Gay Marriage

I'm really glad that California passed the gay marriage law. I don't see why people think that marriage can only be between a man and a woman. Who came up with that? I mean I am a Christian, but then again I am basically a Liberal, weird I know. I don't understand what the big deal is, Everybody should have the right to be married. Who gets to say who can be married. It's not something I understand. I am straight, but I have soo much gay pride. I love going to Pride Parades! It's so interesting to see all those people who aren't afraid to be themselves and just live their lives. I do sometimes judge some people, but who doesn't? I try my hardest not to though. I hate to be made fun of, and why not give people the same treatment as I would want.

Anyways I love the idea of gay marriage, and was excited about California's law.

So Be gay and proud, I'll stick behind you!

Summer Blues.

I'm sitting at my house for the like 5th day in a row. It sucks.

I don't want to complain but i can't help it. I'm so bored. I feel like I have no friends. Last summer was so fun minus a few things.

I want to leave, but without money or a ride I can't do anything. I wish I could hang with my Best friend....but I can't because n0 one will drive a couple extra miles to let me have fun!!! I feel like theres nothing to do....and I'm basically just wasting the day away. I would get a job but then I could only work weekends and thats the only time I can actually see my best buddy.

And me being in drivers ed doesnt help at all. It basically ruins all my fun. I just want to chill with friends....but nobody I actually want to see. Its a downer..BIG TIME.

I just waste the day away because there is nothing to do. Listen to music and watch tv is about my only fun til the weekend.

Experiment

Well I'm doing a experiment and i cant do the write up. Ive never had this much trouble with a freaking paper. I did a crappy experiment and now I'm wasting my time blogging.....i have a feeling I'm going to stay up late because right now i don't wanna work and its already 11:30. I really wanna do this project but i think the main reason I'm not working on it is because i have to present it in front of a class i hate...people and me do mix unless they're kids. I like kids for some reason, they aren't as rude as teenagers that's fer sure.

Anyways I'm listening ti Holiday and its getting me focused so i might as well work on it. =]

Blog about Blogging

I was just reading some of my blogs and i realized how much i jump from one topic to another....i guess im just not a flowee type of writer. plus i have alot to say =]

Today was weird.....dont talk shyt on teachers in front of their students(hears the story).....I was in my engineering class and i was talking about how my swum coach, it was her fault that 4 people got kicked off the team, and i guess one of her students heard and ran bak to her like a little pussy....and so she confronted me today...and i choked. I mean it really wasn't her fault...they did something and got consequences, but i still blamed her and i know it wasn't her...but i just hate her because she treats me like I'm a child and gives me attitude everyday...and grrr it makes me angry.

anyways here's a lesson: if you want to talk shyt on ur teacher, make sure none of their students are around...unless you want to be confronted...then go right ahead.


Well that was the highlight of my day. G'd night =]

Prom

I know I'm only a sophomore but i really wanna go to prom. Most of my friends are older than me...plus like almost all sophomores are goig because they were invited. I just wish that someone had at least signed me up. Idk it's weird i guess none of my friends wanted me to go....but its all good Im pretty sure im going next year...but who knows i might wait til senior year....then it will be even more special.

Plus my best friend is camping and not calling her dad, didn't invite me. My other friends...going to a party i also wasn't invited. It just sux cuz th only people that will invite me to do stuff...it wont be fun. I just wanna go to a party with my friends and when i don't get asked to go it makes me feel even worse than normal. Low self esteem and boredom= sadness lol.

But im just hoping someone will call me

Peace

Blogging in school

Man blogging in school is fun especially when no one knows that you are and its not blocked like most websites in school. Well thats all i wanted to say and that i hate swim practice!!!! and i really don't wanna go today. my coach has such an attitude for no reason....i really hate her. I miss my old coach so much its crazy. She was nice....but swimming is almost over! I'm actually excited for it to be done...this year has been bad 4 girls were kicked off and i did horrible this year. But I am going to try to start working out and actually get into shape for once cuz i freaking look preggo its not good. People keep calling me the Virgin Mary cuz i look preggo. But hopefully i get over my laziness and fast cuz i have almost all B's which are basically F's to me.
Blah is right now. Business will be my weekend...no fun but work....homework..and a lot of it. Fun is what i wish i was doing but I'm stuck in a class with a buncha idiot guys....whatever is all good in the hood.

Peace out =]

Stress

People say teenagers have no stress...whoever says that is probably an adult. They have NO idea what its like to be a teenager. And when school is stressing nd you have a low self esteem its impossible not to be stressed. I always feel stupid, and my so-called best friend is going camping with a bunch of guys and didnt even bother to invite me...i mean how can she possible call me he best friend and not even invite me to something sooo fun? I just dont understand anymore. Life is so stupid and i just want to be normal with actual friends that i KNOW i can turst wont bitch out on me and treat me like shit....but who knows if that'll ever happen......

Anger

Well my anger problem is skyrocketing.....and fast. I get so frustrated ALL the time and i seem to give up on everything very quickly. I hate when teachers make you *use your imagination* I don't fucking want to use it....just tell me what to do and I'll do it. I just cant stand projects and people. I cant take it anymore...I think i need some anger management cuz i am an angry person.

anyways the end of my sophomore year is fast approaching and idk if im ready for Junior year!! i have no fun classes except for band and that's also alot of work. Plus i still haven't gotten rid of my need for procrastination....and focusing....and controlling my anger....lol.

I just hope that junior year i will change into an actual good student and work hard and ask for help with things i dont understand

well I needed to vent....so keep reading my blog/.

Body Aches

Idk whats wrong with me but i think my rib cage is too big 4 my body!!! it hurts to sit and lay down. Idk right now.

West fest: people got arrested. Play alot of guitar hero II, earned alot of money for engineering, had alot fun, Drank alot of coca cola. Missed what happened with the girls that got arrested. Hung out with friends...i didnt do alot besides my GHII booth but did have fun.

This week: 3 day week(4 day weekend!) Don't know what i'm going to do but hopefully go see Harold & Kumar 2 and be with my friends yay!

PLBBBBH idk what else to say not much going on in the life of MarloCarlo.

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Today was my swim meet. I was only able to do 2 events.....but i'm not complaining. After the swim meet i went to view the body of a girl that died from my school at the funeral home. i really want to go to her funeral but im in school at that time and i feel like her friends and family should be there instead of people that didnt realt even know her. I know i didnt i wanted to go just for everybody else that needed comforting or something but since i have no ride im not going.

But today is west fest and so that should be good =]

So I went to church.....

for the first time in like 2 years. It wasn't my church but it was church. It wasn't like my old church where its boring. The woman was surprisingly funny and really nice. I mean it was weird because my views on church and God have changed drastically since the last time i went to church. Its crazy cuz i really dont know what i believe in anymore and i didnt really listen to her...i know i should have but it was kinda hard to focus. Anyways Last night was fun. I know i was complaining about not having any friends but it tuns out that my friends phone is hella fucked up and so e couldn't get any of her texts or calls =] but this other girl called me and invited me over.

we stayed up til 6am in my friends car makin videos and talking and roastin MORE marshmallows. So i guess it turns out i do have friends after all.

Orange on my bed

I keep looking at this dang orange on my bed and it just sits there wanting me to eat it...but i cant. I want to but just can't i will eat it but not right now.

And for some reason it makes me angry. But i think the real reason I'm angry is because it's saturday and I'm home alone again. I mean i did get invited to the mall but if i went i would only get an hour there so that plan was ruined and lucky me nothing else came my way. Now i get to sit and roast marshmallows with my mom. Not that shes boring its just no teenager wants spend their Saturday night with their parents.
I hate being alone because it makes me feel so much more lonely than usual. and that i have no friends even though i do..just not anyone i really wanna hang out with. cuz most of my Friends don't wanna do the stuff i wanna do lol. anyways it's just one of those weekends.

Midnight Boredom

I cant figure out how to be rid of my boredom. I could play guitar hero but don't wanna get up. and i could myspace people...too bad no ones online. and I could sleep....BUT i'm not tired.
I was playin one of my favorite games...but it got annoying. So how do i get rid of my boredom....all i think about is what i COULD be doing if y friends didn't ignore my calls. When i think about it there is probably alot of people having the same problem as me...but none of them are my friends or they choose to stay home. Cuz if i had someone to chill with i would leave right now. o have someone come over. I cant WAIT til i turn 16 and can drive cuz when that happens I'm going to be making 2am trips to Denny's. It sux being 15 you cant do anything without it being illegal.

Stupid laws. Curfew= grrr.

I just wanna see a movie

Why cant i ever find someone to go to the movies with? All i wanna do is go see a movie or do soemthing with my friends. Why are they always busy? I mean seriously. I hate sitting at home i wish that my friends would call me back so I can actually do something besides sitting at home writing blogs and watching tv all night.
BLAH i need my best friend back!!! It sux whats happening to her. Her grandma just died.

Career Fair!!!

We had career fair at our school today.....and it wa boring. First i had to get up at 6am! to go to swim practice and boy was i tired thats the earliest i've ever gotten up in the morning i think...i mean ive stayed up ti.l 6 but never really gotten up. Anyways the career fair was boring. Speakers i wish to not of heard i almost fell asleep a ton of times. and i didnt even get to learn about other careers besides engineering. And we finally got to look around at other places all the good people were gone =[ and i ddint get anything cool.
But i did get a volunteer application to Rainbows United...which is like a place that helps children in need and i really wanna work with children at least for now..and even tho its not a job i could still help children and i think it would make me happy. plus volunteer work would be really good for college.
The best thing about today is that i got out of school at noon...the bad thing was that all i did today was CLEAN and man did i clean. I pulled out the big guns and went clean crazy. And tonight is not looking so fun either.....Probably home alone again because all my friends I *guess* are busy

Faith?

I'm confused about God. I want to believe in him but how can i believe in the bible? Its a book. I don't know what i believe anymore. its so confusing.

I mean i think i really do believe in God but i just don't know about the bible I really do need some kind of closure but no one can really give it to me. I firmly do not believe in evolution..no matter if i believe in god or not.

Life and faith and science are so weird. People have such different outlooks on life....It's hard to be in the middle between knowing what u believe in. I really don't know anything about myself really. When people ask me what I'm good at or my skills....i cant give them anything. I need closure on my life but the only person that can give it to me is me but how can i when i barely even know myself?

Such a sad mouring day

Today was basically the mourning of Alex. People wore black and red because that was her favorite colours. Everyone made posters, and t-shirts and everything.

And i felt so guilty because i was so upset that she died but at the same time happy because of what everyone is doing to remember her. I still can't over how guilty i felt. People came together and helped each other....and it sux to have such a beautiful thing happen for such a horrible, not understandable reason. Losing a family member/school mate is just a sad reason.

It's ok to mourn her death...but maybe should we be celebating her life? Hard to do because all you wanna do is just go to sleep and wake up and pretend like nothinf happened...i know i wanna do that. Celebrating a life cut so short may never happen no matter how much we want it. But i'm glad about all the people making things to remember her, and everyone writng letters to her family and just anything people are doing for her. I pray that her family, friends and anyone that cried for her and felt for her will be ok. and that we can all come together for her.

TV can be impacting???

Wow i just watched this show called Eli Stone. and omg its about one of my favorite shows on tv (but trust me theres alot more). anyways i love tv and i think i get a little too much into it. It just makes me so crazy. =]

Anyways this show is so awesome. And tonight was the season finale...and soo confuzzling. I couldnt stop watching. and i wont tell you the ending if you do watch the show but it was a bittersweet ending for me.


TV is so addicting its kinda like my drug(sometimes)
It.....i just can't explain it. every show i watch like sticks in my mind for a long time!

I freaking thank god 4 DVR!!!!!!!!!!!!! woo i love it!!!!!!

Do my "friends" really care?

I don't know anymore. I feel like no one knows me anymore or understands or cares. Without alyssa i dont really hang out with anyone. I have this one girl samantha...but the only time we hang out is when she has some room in her car. I always feel awkward whenever i talk to people. I dont really feel comfortable with anyone and i never feel like i belong. I do have friends but i feel like they don't like me very much.
I hate myself at times and feel worthless. and i KNOW i'm not but just feel like it sometimes. its weird. I need alyssa to be there more but she cant. we're so different and i wish we could be closer. i wanna be like friends that hang out everyday and not choose a boyfriend over her best friend. I wanna hag out with different people or the people i used to be able to hang with. Life is going haywire. I keep getting more and more confused. things r happening that are so awful i just want to cry with a friend and just talk about life. I need someone i can talk to about everything and anything. Its so hard being a teenager...I sometimes wish that i could just dissappear.
I need to get a handle on life and just figure out everything. and talk. and cry and laugh and just be me without trying to cover it up with my shyness. I'm sick of being shy but its not something you just get over like that. and i've been trying but its hard with everyone in this world judging you.......
I'm really am just kinda sick of waiting for my life to start.

Goals:
Not take life 4 granted
LIVE
Laugh Love
Make sure who my real friends are.
Tell people how i really feel
Figure out what i wanna do
Not be shy
Write.
Take lotz of photos
Swim harder & faster

gosh idk waht else but i'll think of something.

COOL PICS

R.I.P Alex Morales

A girl at my died today. she was only 17. A life with a bright future cut so short. A tremendous basketball ball player and a great friend. Everyone liked her...no one had anything negative to say about her.

I never really got to know her but it hurt me so much to think of her friends and family and to see all my friends that care for her so......it made me cry. I couldnt believe that something like this could happen at our school. Its so crazy and confusing and the school won't tell us anything and it just breaks my heart.

and also just thinking about the fact that it could've been one of my closest friends and that scares me sooo much and to even think about it now..everything thats going on is crazy and sad and i just wish i coul do more to help everyone closest to her.


Life is so precious and i wish that we wouldnt take it for granted cuz i know i can alot too. I know that she for sure did not take life for granted and that she lived a good life and even tho cut short she touched everyones lives....even mine


my heart goes out to everyone that knew her and loved her. to everyone at west. her family. friends
and anyonw that cried and cared for her.


RIP ALEX my heart gos to you and i know your in a good place
we all love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Swim meet, easy week, EUROPE =]

I had fun even though we went against probably thw two toughest teams in wichita....we p;ayed hard!!!

It sux cuz we cant win because our team is so small and points are awarded by how many girls you have in the wate each race...so its really not fair...but we live =]

anyways diving is the scariest thing to watch!!!! and the girls did very well...but still scary


I worked so hard and i swam 4 lengths of breaststroke and they disqualified me for SUPPOSEDLY doing the butterfly kick....but i know i didnt do it....stupid judges! oh well Im not doing breaststoke anymore is all i know....cuz i hate losing when working so hard.



Anyways this week is going to be a BREEZE....Tommorow i get to miss the first half of the day.
Thursday is Wesy Fest which is like a huge celebration for school and i'm doing a GUITAR HERO booth yay!!! Friday is a half day


Like i said.........breeze





omg!
I might get to go to EUROPE for a concert tour with a famous band or something but 16 days and 7 countries but the only problem is the payment!! can you say EXPENSIVE. But it's such a GREAT opportunity!! I really would want to go but 16 days without a cell phone. without people i know and withour internet I just dont know if i can do it alone.


I just can't get over it!

Writing

Boy do i SUCK at writing papers for school...when it come to my opinion...sure i can write fine. But when it comes to school and its something that barely makes any sense...it gets tough


Especially!! focusing. Like now for example i have a paper due tommorow, 2 pages and i have 3 pargraphs. HAHA and im blogging! UGH I need stop blogging and get to work hehe


I about to quit writing the stupid paper and keep blogging ust cuz i like it alot better.



But if you have any tips on focusing, or just help with teenage stuff

I could use it.

Engineering (and confused)

See, at my school we have academies. Business, Engineerig & Manufacturing, Fine Arts, and Health Science.

And I'm in the engineering.

I really thought I wanted to be an engineer, and now i'm in it for the next 2 years of high school. STUCK. And now i have no idea if i even WANT to be an engineer anymore...its very hard. We just built a marble sorter....and boy was that tough. Its basically building a machine.

I really like kids and animals and Idk i might want to go into a profession in that sort...but who knows. Im just really worried about this class.



I do get almost all As and not to brag but i am in the *national honors something or other* lol.
But I really don't feel smart and I really dont like school. I hate math, and Science makes NO sense to me. I cant even think of a simple experiment I want to do for that class...so how am i going to survive in the engineering world when i hate math and science????

I am smart...but with so much trouble focusing, and not knowing what i want to do, or what im good at I just dont know anything



Me= CONFUZZLED!

Being A Swimmer

IS HARD

I did not know HOW hard until today.

My freaking coach worked me soo damn hard today...I almost cried from the pain.
My side hurt like a ********************* (fill in the blanks).

Anyways I miss my old coach soo badly but i'm dealing with her. I'm going to swim a stroke in my meet and i am so worried about it...I hope I can do it.


Swimming is so hard. Believe me. Its probably one of the hardest sports....



My team is pretty good, but most girls don't seem to like me very much...well anyone really.
I don't know. LAUGH OUT LOOOOOOOUDDDDDD!!! =]]]]]]]]

My Life

Wake Up: 7:20

Lay in bed for like 5 minutes or so.

Brush my teeth. Get my school/swim stuff together.
Get dressed. Brush hair. Go to school.

SCHOOL::: BLAH BLAH work BLAH

3:10- Swim practice til 5:30

Go home. Get on my laptop(check myspace). Watch TV all night

10- do homework.
12- sleep


That is like everyday...usually doesnt change.


Maybe you didnt know.
But i wanted to tell about my boring. Boring LIFE.


I need to live.


=]

Makeup????

Dude I think I wanna start wearing makeup. I used to think it was a waste of time but i feel like I need it. I'm sick of being single and I'm just too damn shy to make the first move.

Maybe I dont need it....who knoes. Maybe I didnt wear it becuz i didnt know how to put it on. Actually I still dont know how to.

But yeah I just thought i should talk about that little piece of info =]