Thinking about the future...

Music is great, but for some reason most songs make me think of how my future is going to turn out. I always think of the future, and even the past, but never just focusing on the PRESENT. I mean obviously sometimes you do need to think of your future, but not ALL the time.

My problem is that when I think of my future it consumes my mind, and it's all I can think about. Tonight I was listening to this song, and I thought that that was what song I wanted at my wedding! But I was always reading a book about marriage. Anyways, You can't let the future consume you. Ok what I mean is don't think about your wedding day, and useless stuff as a teenager.

Another thing is I dwell on the past! Sometimes I'll remember things that I said MONTHS ago to someone, and it's mostly the moments that I was stupid. I know in my mind that they don't remeber that moment, but I always still feel dumb.

This blog is basically making NO SENSE but I guess that's me!

I just want to say, focus on the present, don't dwell on the past. Just live your life. Hey maybe I should take my own advice =]

Twilight Series

I love this so far. Actually I've only read the first one, BUT I basically read it in one night. I loved it so much, I couldn't put it down! I tried to get the second one at the library, but out of 18 copies, people were already on hold so I wasn't gonna wait. So now I'm just going to buy the rest of the series! The movie looks INCREDIBLE, with the exception of Kristen Stewart, she just doesn't work.

Great actress, not her role though. I can't tell you who I could pick, because it would too hard to choose. The guy that they're using is perfect, his pale skin and beautifulness, is a perfect match for Edward Cullen!

They only thing that annoys the crap out of me is that STUPID Warner Bros. are putting Harry Potter off in place of Twilight. I LOVE HP, so I was really disappointed, but at the same time was it a smart move? I think it would good to put them both out for a standoff at the box office!

I can't complain. As long as they don't put Harry Potter off for long, because then I just put another rant blog!

Church Camp

Well I just got back from church camp.

I got to go to six flags, rappelling, the beautiful mountains in Colorado, and get some time with God.

Rappelling was one of th scariest moments of my life!!! I've never done anything like it before, I mean you're going off the side of a mountain! It was so exhilarating. The view was also amazing.


My time with God was well spent during that camp, although there were some moments when the road was rocky especially with my besty alyssa. She's preggo, and so that means mood swings to the max! I was seriously thinking of a few moments where I didn't want to be her friend, but I know she needs me so I just let her get over her little moods. I did realise the swings don't last very long.

I'm just ready for her baby to come, even if she's definetly NOT ready to have a baby....she's only 16. But maybe it'll test her and she can prove to everyone that she can be a good mom. She quit doing drugs and she won't hang out with me if i do anything. But the real test will be if she will dump her boyfriend if HE doesn't quit....which I'm sure he won't even if he has a baby on the way....

You can probaby jump to the conclusion that I hate him. He's a jerk. But whatever I've decided to stay the F**** out of their busisness even if it kills me. I hate when I try to be a good friend and get critizied for it.


Anyways I can't wait for next year. I made so many new friends and they will never be forgotten!

I think my relationship with God will be better, even if i'm not your normal Christian. I've decided to change my ways, I just have to figure it all out about what exactly I'm changing in my life.
I know that I'm ready.